he's still here somehow

somehow i do not have the words for this blog entry.

to put it simply, i found love and let it go.

we were different. we still are.

we spent the hours just talking about anything and everything. as usual. as if we didn't know the end was upon us. but more because we knew for a fact that the end was upon us.

we agreed never to see each other again. never to exchange IMs. never to text. never to communicate.

one final goodbye. and then he left.

funny. i was smiling.

funny. it didn't feel like goodbye.

funny. it felt like he'd be there all the more. like we just promised to stay together. like i know we'll just keep on loving, only this time from farther away.

but it was goodbye.

the future is not mine. i know that. he'll find love. i'll always pray for that.

i'm just hoping he'll remember. the same way i will.