i'm not supposed to say this

i shouldn't have searched for her. or browsed through her photos.

i should just have stayed away from seeing anything.

because i'll have two whole years to look anyway.

two years.

i'll look at everything and live everything.

oh God, help me.

remind me why.

i have to go.

the calling

one happy thought

it's okay to cry because when tears evaporate, they help make pretty clouds. :)